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[Sep. 5th, 2006|02:21 pm] |
Today was really fun.
I feel good because today I'm getting my lip pierced! Finally! Mom said I could and she's signed the forms and EVERYTHING!
I'm so happy. I just found out that I have been accepted into Harvard. And Yale. I don't know which to choose... oh, why is life so hard sometimes?
I want to tell the world that I love you all! You're all so special to me!
I am making this journal Friends Only because of the perverts and stalkers who only want to see my photos.
I want to say thanks to the academy for giving me this award.
I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with bipolar disorder.
That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.
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[Jul. 10th, 2006|06:07 pm] |
WTF
that just about explains everythinggg
^ This was def going to be an interesting entry lol. I was writing it a few days ago and got frustrated and thought i deleted it but when i signed on today it had been restored...so i'm glad i stopped writing when i did otherwise it looks like it was gonna be really angry. lol
Anyways...
just got home from my vacation a little while ago. its bittersweet to be home. i dont know what i want though, i dont really like living here--i love my house but i have no neighbors and my town is pretty ridiculous, theres not much here for me. I spent time in the country and up in a suburb in canada this week and their both amazing but neither really appealed to me...i'm goin into the city saturday so hopefully i get the feeling that thats where i want to be for the rest of my life lol
So we left on thursday morning and drove about 4 hours to my aunt and uncles mountain home, watched movies and read until we got into their town and then looked at all the stores that closed at like 7 lol silly country-ness. then got on a crazy winding mountain road to their house. I hung out with my little cousin Matthew, hes 3 and he loves meee. lol hes the cutest kid and i loved reading to him and taking him to see the horses <3 we departed the house friday morning and my family and my aunt and uncle went onto Canada! 6 hours later we get to our hotel the Hilton Homewood Suite. it was pretty sweet. get it? suite/sweet. hotel humor. loljp We decided not to go to the rehearsal dinner *rebels* so we went over to the mall across the street, it was awesome. and canadian boys love me. We went to get dinner but the pug wasnt allowed in so we ate Subway instead lol nicce. Then back to the hotel and the beds were amazing--like, these beds were incredible. lol Next morning we went for breakfast then up to my cousins mansion. It was great to see everyone getting ready, all excited for the wedding. And their home is unbelievably beautiful--just like my cousins, its perfect. We went back to the hotel and went in the pool and then got ready for the wedding. I wore a pink gown and felt a little overdressed but everyone thought i looked nice. I always look excellent. loljp So we went to the church and i only teared a little, there was no crying--suprising, i know! lol it was a beutiful ceremony for my cousin ashleigh and her new husband giles. Me and Ashleigh probably have the most in common of my cousins and i still dont know her very well. Its terrible, i wish we cud live closer. We both have the opera singing trait lol she even had soloists sing at her ceremony. it was really nice. And then we went back to the reception and "her parents rented heaven for her wedding night" lol the mansion is right on lake ontario and there was a full moon and fireworks. The food was awesome, alot of things i had never tried before but lovedd. The band was really talented. It was a perfect wedding and it made me feel like i would wnat this one day. It made me feel like calling a boy and asking him if he wanted to marry me lol I mean, ashleigh and giles got together when they were 15--I'm wayy overdue to find my future husband. lol
We checked out of the hotel that morning and said goodbye to everyone. I'm so glad to have seen so much of my family and even to have met new family lol From there we drove to Niagara Falls and I was in charge so i took the family around to the best scenic points lol, the pug couldnt go on the boats, and he basically rules our lives, so we didnt check any of that out but it was still cool cuz i got to share what i had learned about the falls when i was there in like March. We continued back to my aunt and uncles house and left from there this morning to come home. We plan on going back to their house in August and we'll go to the lake, caverns and gamefarm. it should be nice
Overall my vacation was about a 7 of 10. yay. lol lots of driving but enough movies and books and naps to make it work. it was all worthwhile to feel that i have a great family. I've always felt like i wasnt very close with my extended family and i always wanted them in my life. I realize they are there, maybe far away, but always there for me.
So I'm back home and get to see my bestest friends, whom i have missed mucho, and i get to go back to work, which i have not missed at alll. I am going to have a great weekend tho-saturday is a trip to the city with greggy to see spamalot and then checking out NYU and then getting my new headshots because i need them if i'm going to be famous lol
I will write again soon to let u know how all that went.
Catch u on the flipside!
<3 Rachel |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|10:25 pm] |
I'm gonna start writing in this like i'm an lj veteran.
Today I went to the movies with my brother and saw Click. About half an hour in I wrote it off as just another cliche Adam Sandler movie, that it would be pretty funny but it wasnt gonna change my life. An hour later I was sobbinggg cuz it was really good lol...so yea, i'm always a little emotional, its pretty much my thing lol but for whatever reason this movie really touched me. I'm pretty sure I completely embarrassed my brother in front of the movie viewing public but I'm okay with that. lol So, not to spoil the movie but he ends up living in fast forward. He puts his work ahead of the other aspects of his life and everything falls apart. So here I am sitting in my theatre seating and feeling like my life has been in fast forward for a little while. I'm not sure it has but the movie made me think that. Its possible that i'm just at this transition point in life and the mix of drama and new freedom and the consequences of those are part of that. Maybe I should slow it all down--but that makes me think i will miss out. I feel like we are put on this world to make a difference in it and make an impression on people for life to have any meaning. So if i just chill for awhile am i less successful? By my own definition, yes. Which is why i flip out when my SAT scores are really great but not what i wanted. And the reason i hate so much that i have no idea what career i want. I have this vague picture of what i want--it basically involves changing the world. lol shes a dreamer.
So now I'm a senior and my parents are getting older and i can see it and my brother has a gf and i have a group of friends that i know will be with me for the long run, like were gonna go to starbucks at 50 for lattes. And it makes me feel very grown up. and I dont really want to grow up. lol its do-able but i'd rather not. thanks. lol
Ive been taking things day by day and for right now its the best way to do it. I'm going after what i want now whether what i want is right for me or not. I'm trying to hold on to the best of my past while living today. its a balancing act. *performer*
and where does a relationship fit into this? lol thats def gotta be the topic of my next entry.
Anyways catch u on the flipp side :)
I need a new catchphrase :)
<3 Rach |
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[Jun. 24th, 2006|12:17 am] |
so i actually hafta write in this thing? ;p
lol soon, i promise
goodnite <3 |
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[Jun. 8th, 2006|09:28 pm] |
Hey, My name is Rachel and I have this cool new thing that people like to call a livejournal. :) I may be new to the site but I wrote in Blurty for about a year a while ago and completely loved it, so hopefully this will work out like that did and i can convey my deepest emotions and know that all my best friends will read it--I'm kind of an exhibitionist in the sense of "deliberately behaving so as to attract attention". but what did u expect, i am an actress after all--so this is kind of my job. lol Plus i get the added benefit of keeping tabs on my bffls...everybody winsss. its a good time.
Anyways, the summer is approaching which will allow me more time to write in here so you'll probably be hearing more from me then, just wanted to say hey.
Catch u on the flip sideee ;) lol
<3 Rach |
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